Since my last, full blown post on the 27th of July, I have been a bit distracted and therefore have not made one since. In the mean time, I’ve been publishing short posts (Quotes & ‘Thoughtful Thoughts’), for you, dear reader, in order not to be neglectful.
For me, when stressed, my body and mind are out of sync. Therefore, not only is my sleep disturbed, but my creativity and appetite are also suppressed. I do not like feeling like this. It’s as though my inspiration is being thwarted in it’s ability to flow through me.
The funny thing is though, as I look back at my short blog posts, I realized that inspiration has been coming to me, just in small unrecognizable doses. Hence, the Quotes and ‘Thoughtful Thoughts’.
Once I realized this, I have felt the creative juices flowing more freely and have started a couple of fun house projects that I have been putting off. And guess what? I am now writing this blog post!
I am quite sure that I am not the only one who feels the drought of lack of inspiration and creativity when under stress. My intention for this particular post is not only to empathize with you in this state but to also share with you the bit of awareness that I have just realized.
The fact that I felt uninspired was misleading, in a sense. For there where signs all around me, but my eyes/heart/soul could not see them from the angle in which I was viewing them. Once I stepped back a bit and changed my perspective ever so slightly, there it was, ready and waiting.
I am not whole unless I am able to be creative. I have an incessant need to put forth inspiration. Whether it be for just myself or for those around me, or for you, dear reader. As a matter of fact, my entire blog is intended to inspire a peace of mind through harmony and balance, given to you through my own life experiences. And in return, I am enriched by this life’s journey/circle in reaching out to you.
Distractions can be so very cumbersome when trying to be creative. You find that your mind/thoughts are not clear and your vision clouded by anxiety and fear. It is most difficult to focus and allow the good things/thoughts in. My only advice is, give it time and be patient with yourself. Step back and take a different look when ready. Do not feel guilty or neglectful about this. It’s a process, just like any other journey.
You must take deep breaths in order to fully exhale. Be creative, be happy, be your true self in love and light and there you will find peace of mind.
Oh, how I just love a calm rain on a sultry day in the summertime. The smell, the sound, and the cleansing nature of it all. Today it is raining and I find myself relecfting on it’s literal (as well and figurative meaning) for me.
We all know the importance rain holds, in it’s crucial and essential relevance to our existence on this planet. Without water we cannot survive, nothing can. Metaphorically speaking, we also cannot survive without the hopes carried by the rain to wash away our sorrows, to cleanse our souls, and to wait for the sunlight to break through the storm and shine upon a brighter path to peace and harmony in our lives.
At this moment in my life I find that there are many unsettled things around me. We all have these times, dear reader, in which we are experiencing some form of limbo or another where major and minor decisions need to be made. Seeking answers, not knowing what the outcome may be, while moving forward with a bit of fear and anxiety.
If only the rain could wash away our fear on the unknown, enabling us to walk without worry. If only we could see a break in the dark cloud cover to help guide us to this place of peaceful destination and fulfillment. These are the hopes I hold today as I ponder my next move. I must zone in on my fears and overcome each one. At this point it’s a difficult task for me, as I’m sure for others. Being a confident individual does not make you immune to moments where you feel that confidence lacking. It happens to the best of us depending on the situation at hand and the tools we feel we do or do not posses.
And so, today, as it rains, I look out the windows of my home and at the same time need to take a look also into the windows of my ego. Two different views which must come to the same conclusions. If you are also, dear reader, battling with yourself in one way or another, I wish the rain to wash away your worries, fear, anxiety, and apprehensions May the sun break through and shine upon your being with much hope and grace while showing you the path to a peace of mind.
After hearing ( and seeing) today’s verdict of “not guilty” in the Casey Anthony trial today and walking around initially feeling full of angst, anger and dismay because of it, I decided to take a step back and reevaluate the situation. In doing so, I thought that this would be a great opportunity to speak to the justice we feel entitled to, on a personal level, when we are the victims of personal and emotional crimes committed by those around us.
In other words, we have all felt, amongst a myriad of circumstances, at one time or another, taken advantage of, lied to, defamed, etc. These personal affronts to our being, leave us feeling a need to avenge the perpetrator, whether justified or not. We feel that we cannot have closure unless we can get whoever “back” for doing us wrong. These are all normal initial responses of self righteousness and justice. Acting upon them can be quite risky and in some instances, may leave us feeling worse about our situation rather than better. The satisfaction factor we expect may leave us unfulfilled and empty instead of victorious and proud.
If the opportunity to confront such bad behavior of another does not present itself to you, you may feel cheated out of justice. You may also feel cheated, in the same way, if you do not see the negative consequences of their abhorrent behavior struck upon them, in what you deem a timely and severe enough manner.
Life is funny in many ways. One of them being, in the way in which people who behave badly get “paid back”. You see, dear reader, justice knows no time. Justice knows no limits. Justice follows an evil soul through out eternity. On occasion, we are allowed to see or hear about the just rewards handed back to the offenders.
There are also times in which we do not have this privilege, this satisfaction, this triumph over evil. We must know this, in order to accept the fact, that all will be justified in the face of honor and balance, even if we do not have the opportunity to serve the sweet justice ourselves. That it will be done, at some point in time, whether in this life or the next.
We should also realize that people have to feel horrible about themselves in the first place, in order to be horrible to others. Which confirms the fact that their daily lives are not happy and peaceful ones. Their souls do not smile, they frown. Their hearts are not open, they’re closed. Their eyes do not see the beauty in others, only the pain and suffering that reflects back to them in the mirror, every single day they walk this earth.
Time, as we know it, truly does help heal all wounds and there is comfort in knowing that you do not have to be there to see sweet justice served. Just know, dear reader, that it will be done. It is the way in which the universe keeps itself in balance. It’s the way in which you must feel in order to move forward with a sense of peace. This is a difficult task, I know, but I also know that the balance of life holds true.
We are all born with the basic need to feel loved and accepted. One of the ways in which we show each other our fondness is by telling them how proud we are of them. We need to hear such things from our friends, peers, loved ones, and most of all, our parents (or caregivers). The act of telling your children how proud you are of them is one of the many fundamental building blocks of a healthy self image.
In order for us to feel good about who we are (and in turn feel good about those we choose to surround ourselves with) we must feel a sense of worth and importance. This positive self image is then perpetuated by the way in which we treat others as well as ourselves. If someone expresses that they really never care about how others feel about them, or that they don’t require approval of any kind, they are not being truthful with you and most importantly, are lying to themselves. They are in denial and therefore, at times, can seem cold and unaffected.
If we are not nurtured with prideful caregivers, this leaves us forever seeking approval in others, often at our own expense. We then become victims and travel in the same dysfunctional circle for a lifetime, never finding the peace within ourselves to know that we are important and that we can accomplish great things; always wondering why we are not good enough and why life is so unfair. When a parent neglects their child in this way, they feel either consciously or subconsciously a sense of emptiness or a void. Until they are able to revisit and resolve their parents/care giver’s shameful behavior and come to realize that the rejection they have felt had nothing to do with them but with the caregivers themselves, they will not have inner peace.
I share this subject today, with you, dear reader, for I was inspired (yesterday) by some one very special and important to me who has gone out of their way to show me this type of acceptance over the past few weeks. And for this, I am truly grateful. My hope for you is to help free you up of any old negative preconceptions about your worthiness and abilities.
We all have many accomplishments to be proud of. These accomplishments need not be monumental. They could be as simple as just getting through a rough day, not loosing your temper, helping out a dear friend, finishing a project on time, or smiling when you feel like crying. You should be proud of yourself each and every day. You should also say the words out loud: “I am very proud of you!” to those who deserve it, when it is appropriate and true. These kind words should mean as much to you as to the recipient. Now, watch their face light up with delight!
One could consider life’s journey as a series of circles. In the beginning we all have one main circle of life to complete. While traveling along this circle we will find offshoots of connecting circles that also need to be completed. All of the spheres intertwined with every other individual we come across connecting us all in one way or another. Either traveling along the same circle for a short or long period depending on our spiritual needs.
Some circles are thicker and therefore more complex to navigate along. While others will be small and narrow, shorter and easier, if you will. The common denominating factor of each and every one is that they must all be completed in order to reach a more peaceful and harmonious life. For each circle’s completion holds a journey filled with wisdom and enlightenment. If certain circles are not completed you will find yourself continually on a dead-end path that brings only frustration and rejection with a lower sense of one’s self.
At times, we may find that a certain circle has become weak or broken or that we ourselves have become weary and tired from traveling so long on it. In these case, we must makes many choices. Do you try and fix it and continue to move along or do you abandon it and consider on an easier more pleasing path. And what would the consequences you will encounter be, if you made a decision one way or another?
The closer the souls are to one another, the greater the chances are of traveling within same circles. With smaller gaps in between, resulting in similar outcomes, which strengthens the bonds between us. For you see, I believe that we are all connected through these circles and each individuals journey ultimately effects another in either a positive or negative way, and so on, for infinity and throughout eternity.
I know, this sounds a little “way out” and “new age-y”, but I thought I should share with you, dear reader, how I view life in a metaphorical way in order to give you a bit of an insight to my mind’s eye. You see, this blog, in itself, is a circle of mine in which I encourage you to join me, in order for you to complete your own circles in a more effective and loving manner. We can even hold hands along the way!